NeBuLoUs

“The quest for certainty blocks the search for meaning. Uncertainty is the very condition to impel man to unfold his powers.”

-Erich Fromm-

Human rules the world. Ultimate being above all creature. nothing stops us. we came, we rule. very egoistic ideology but that's the practical truth. however, no matter how knowledgeable we are, we still cannot question or answer certain issues.

to name a few : how solid planets wander in dust-filled Milky way, alien existence, origin of religion, beyond Andromeda, Orion's Belt, the Placebo effect, time travel, human spiritual needs, Fibonacci order in flower and leaves arrangement, origins of earthly forces (electromagnetism, gravity etc), how lightning travel and sparks, meditation power,  and whole lot more crazy stuff unexplained.

living in uncertain world we tend to try explain things around us. thats how science theories, religous views and so on started. but when you claim you are certain about something, the idea of reality, practicality and the truth is being overpowered. no effort is being put forth to dig the real situation, this idea works well for the belief we have about God, mystical stuff and certain science theories.

living in vague world makes magic out of norm. it supports certain doctrines which drives people to do good (and also bad things). it also satisfies our curiosity of "why/how stuff happening?"-temporarily. moreover, it magically makes world keep on going. imagine living your life on a wrong idea but in a right way! confusing right?

we need to understand we are in vague world. full of mysteries and questions. but people do tend to argue that they are totally right. what makes them right and confident? it all happening in this crappy funny world.

"living the truth is hard. living in lies is filthy. which goes to which is up to our conscious thinking and acceptability."

- vijendran -

one of my favorite drawing. quick depiction of realty and pain you have to go through to get to reality. the persona is willingly sacrificing himself to reach total consciousness. his soul is catapulting to heaven/almighty (star) and his dust is being carried by wind. metaphorically illustrated was the concept of Hinduism about the end of life.

ஆசை || Aasai - my 1st published tamil poem

this one is my very first attempt on tamil poem. well, not dare to call it a Tamil poem yet, but i tried to scribble something in my mother tongue. million thanks to Thivyashini Tamilvanan and Sparky (anonymous on net) for their guidance.

what is it like when you have the feeling of anxiety and depressed and yet convincing yourself you are in good, lucky condition. how irony is that. it is very hard to smile in times you lost your loved ones. it is very hard too to say 'im very healthy/im very fine' when your life is in total mess. sometimes we neeed to console ourselves that we are in good condition eventhough thats not the case.
[ any mistake in grammar or spelling do comment. ]
indulge =D

உப்பிட்ட தாயை மறந்து
தன்னை நிமிர்த்தியே குனிந்த
கிளைகளைப் படர்ந்து
கனிகளும் ஆறுதல் சொல்ல
சீ! என்று சொல்லிச்
செல்லும் இலைகளைப் போலவே ஓடிடப் பிடிக்கும்!!

வானுக்கும் கடலுக்கும் அல்ல
தட்டுத் தடுமாறி அலையும்
சிறு துளிகளும் சேர
துக்கம் அடக்கியே வளர்ந்த
விண்ணில் ஆங்காங்கே திரியும்
அந்த முகில்களைப் போல அழுதிடப் பிடிக்கும்!!

நட்டதும் கடகடவென வளர
இலையும் முள்ளும் இடைவிடா தைக்க
மலர்ந்ததும் கன்னியர் கில்ல
சிலர் கண்ணீரைக் கரந்து அத்தராய் மாற்ற
இவை மெய்யாகும் என தெரிந்தும்
வெகுளி ரோஜாவைப் போலவே வளர்ந்திடப் பிடிக்கும்!!


நறுக்கிய மரத்துன்டு ஒன்று
வேறு உடலாக கலையால் அஞ்சாமல் கொன்று
யானை மயிரிலும் மெல்லிய நரம்பை
கூனில்லா வரை அதை நேராகக் கட்ட
கொடிய சில விரல்கள் கொண்டு தீன்ட
வழியில்லா நிலையில் தடுமாற
மந்திர இசையைத் தரும் யாழைப் போலே வாழ்ந்திடப் பிடிக்கும்!!!



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uppitta taayai maranthu
tannai nimirttiye kunintha
kilaighalai padarnthu
kanighalum aaruthal solla
chi! yendru solli-
sellum ilaighalai polave odida pidikkum!

vaanurkum kadalurkkum alla
tatti tadumaari alaiyum-
siru tumighalum sera
thukkam adakkiye valarntha
vinnil aanggaangey tiriyum
antha mugilghalai pola azhuthida pidikkum!

nattathum gadagadavena valara
ilaiyum mullum idaividaa thaikka
malarnthathum kanniyar killa
silar kanneerai karanthu attarai maattra
ivai meiyaaghum ena therinthum
vegili rojaavai polave valarnthida pidikkum!

narukkiya maranthundhu ondru
veru udalaaga kalaiyinaal anjaamal kondru
yaanai mayirilum melliya narambai
kuunnilla varai athai nimirrthi katti
kodiya sila viralgal kondu theenda
valiyilla nilayil tadumaara
manthira isai tarum yaazhai pole vaalnthida pidikkum!

Four Noble Truth & Eight Righteous Path

One of the religion that never fail to impress me is Buddhism. Being pragmatic and implementable in nature, the idea of buddhism doesnt involve polytheism and piety to god. Siddharta Gautama highlighted ways for people to live without pain and suffering simply by observing the things around as the way it is.  

To simplify Buddhism in understandable language; there two main things to look at, or simply the ones that i agreed upon and fascinated about. Its called The Four Noble Truth and The Eightfold Path. The Noble Truth explains reality and simply states how things are in living world without the concept of fantasy and perfection. It is the unfortunate and the part of life that we wouldn't want to hear - suffering. Now to avoid suffering, there are 8 rules to follow a.k.a. The Eightfold Path.

The Four Noble truth are :

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  Life is Frustrating and Painful
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  Every Suffering has a Cause
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  Cause of the Suffering scan be ended
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  Way to end the Suffering (meditation - which more to practice of awareness and self realisation)

These awful, unbearable and unfortunate truths has its own reality when it comes to modern living. So accepting the fact of Four Noble Truth is essential. To overcome the Suffering :

1. 
   
   Thinking from the RIGHT view - wrong views indulge us in expectations onto things. right view is the way of seeing a thing as it is in nature. it helps to think straight and accommodate attitude. Ex. an apple IS AN APPLE,  not a crispy sweet caramelly, apple pie.
2. 
   
   The Right Intention - from right view, abandon expectation, fears and hope. That makes us no more able to be manipulated by earthly temptations and needs. no hard work and frustration onto things and accept the truth of stuff around as they are.
3. 
   
   Right speech - once our intentions are pure, our conversation would not carry any abusive or low panache or bluff about things. we say what need to be conveyed.
4. 
   
   Right discipline - follow idea of simplicity, hence no complication of thinking.
5. 
   
   Right livelihood - accept the idea of your undertakings such as job, responsibilities and enjoy living with it.
6. 
   
   Right effort - often viewed as smart thinking, right effort means seeing things as they are, ability to work with em without a nudge and avoid any complication and aggression.
7. 
   
   Right mindfulness - clarity and awareness in your responsibilities.Performing the right attitude in our action.
8. 
   
   Right concentration - defined as absorbing things as they are (example of the apple), that is think, digest and understand the things as they are now without any desire, need, expectation and craving interfering into our judgement.

Buddhists digest these 4 and 8 lines by meditating and lead a simple life; a life style that all of us need to live and think. Core of Buddhism isnt in the rituals and hymns but its in the way of you leading your life and thinking. Religions have lots of ideas to impose, and Buddhism and Buddha never fails to lead me in life nor in thinking ; self realisation is the key to mental consciousness.