My Lost Ones

Life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight.

~Rossiter Worthington Raymond~

for once you know that you nudged the one untill yesterday; and for now you knew he is lost. bereavement over a day aint enough for the most love that he/she gave. only confidence you can build over pain of separation is that, he who left the terrestrial is living more healthier than man, more happier than joyful heart. for some the sorrow swallows them slowly, tear them without pity, changing the mind and bringing more silence.

faith that was taught should do the trick for most who last their loved ones where time can heals the bleeding wounds.

a tribute to those who have lived on the face of earth, gathering love of many and showed us the path of living. although you on the other side, you will be remembered; RIP to your loved once.

a day to remember the one you have lost  permanently. indulge.....

a muggy yellow evening

dry breeze over the head

slowly reaching to the dryness of my throat

with a killing pain

hardly sup a drop of saliva

i was told

you stopped living

hey, its going to be twilight!

bright orangy sky

smeared on with fluffy clouds

serene

tranquill

LOOK!

i am seeing the gift of life - but not you

why?

for once and for all there is no dusk for you

cry

standing still yet so fragile

knowing that you already die...

to whom i should voice?

to tell that i have lost you?

heart that was beating

dimmed in the gloomy evenfall

there it was when

the One kept you by side

lost forever

no night darker than this

no deaf is so mute

total blindness

in sulky blanket of darkness

cuddled with queer clouds of thoughts

in there i was thrown away

lit by the black sun

not more than null

in there

i have lost you

cruel silence and perfect void..

for the emptiness you cut

my spine was slowly bladed

bleeding till end of All-Dweller

graceful life slowly fade

apart from you forever

blackness that He spade

i am crying with a little joy

for you whom resides

with the Creator..

~null and void

~~so much sorrow in a little tear

Nikmat Cinta

A sense of warmth upon afternoon rain - thats how to describe sensation of love. Wet, cold and yet feel of pleasant warm deep inside that would sketch a smile on every face. Either at first sight or gradual feeling, it posts some magical spell over people to just get together and feel the warmness in each others hand. Nothing sexual but totally divine sense of passion to embrace the loved ones - truely mesmerizing.  How is the feel of love at its earliest? What is the feeling that urge one to find their love? And what is the feeling if you found one? Near to quenching dry land with droplets of crystal water? Lets get drenched ~~ indulge =D

tak berdarah tak berdaging

yang suatu itu menimpa atas aku

laksana bebutir air melepasi dakapan awan

melangkau batasan langit

meluru jatuh atas bebatuan

terpercik memecah seluruh angkasa

bagai serpihan bintang atas langit malam

begitulah dia datang

menuju diri ini

memenuhi jiwa raga

dengan nafsu cinta

memenuhi mimpi dewa dewi

membawa suruhan kayangan

hanya untuk membasahi diri

dengan cinta sejati

kiriman rahmat dari syurga

utusan rasmi kepada dunia

untuk memenuhi kalbu

mencoret damai dalam fikiran

membawa senyuman

dalam dunia manusia

cinta

seperti yang dibilang sesetengah

bukan derhaka maksud jika ditolak

bukan nanah setelah luka

cinta itu

suatu senyuman dalam jiwa

bak panas dalam sejuk embun

ingatkan senantiasa akan nikmatnya...

dalam kontang tanah

membakar akar sehingga hangit

cinta datang bagai sebutir air

basahi seluruh rekah rekah 

lembut jadinya keras keruping

nikmat rahsia ...

seindah seribu putik cendana

bebas dalam sangkar - merdeka?

looking at the free things around makes you feel want to be in the same feeling. natural instinct i would say. two things that all human understand is hunger and freedome. it unites nearly most races to fight for it. beauty of freedome totally lies on the mind of a person. achieving years of independence without free civic sense and open mind-ness amongst the civillians is basically growing uncivilised culture. freedome should be in our mind not in anything else.... indulge.... :D


dalam kelam gua sunyi

tersilau sebintik noktah cahaya

suatu yang memberi nafas

suatu yang memberi harapan

bagai tunjang pohon jauh dalam tanah

suatu bahagia sebegitu rupa

tersilap

disangka noktah itu kuasa

dipermain dipertendang

bagai sampah di hujung jalan

tak rasa

akan nikmatnya

pemberian setelah derita

kurnia setelah duka

suatu yang penuh rahmat

derita kulit kerna api

derita hati kerna dijajahi

diam

dalamnya berang

bagai bara tak berbahang

bagai melahap tak kenyang

sebegitu selamba

erti bangsa

sebegitu kosong

nilai kebebasan

namun kini

masih dalam gua

masih dalam kelam

tak terkeluar

nilai bangsa

bila musykil menjelma

hanya satu jawabnya

oh wahai alam

deritalah kau ini!

sehingga manusia hina dijajahi...

kemerdekaan || kemerdekaan || kemerdekaan || kemerdekaan ||  kemerdekaan

 

 

something called chat

--A BUNCH OF FRIENDS MAKE A LIL' SCRACTH OF SMILE ON FACE--

take some inattentive students and put them in the most slow-moving and boring class ever, then you would only get this kinda crap! hahaha... a 'chat paper' that went about the class just to keeps our eyes open in front of the lecturer and pretend as though we are taking some notes.. wicked aite??

it even got its own media player, youtube streaming and notification of YahooChat! lolx!

counting on dependable lectures; im running out of odd for that matter. seem to be not getting quite a interesting lectures (academically) lately. anyhow my loud coursemates made my day even 'non-sleepable'.. wakakaakakahh!! thanx to johnny, waiboon, singtat, yapp, lavanyah, lavaniya, neva, kala, mahesan, sugaraj (intruder), kin fai n many unlisted! :D :D

A BUNCH OF FRIENDS MAKE A LIL' SCRACTH OF SMILE ON FACE

Dia Sebatang Pensel

life aint that tortureful if you are ready to look at it in different perspective. and that is the hardest part. when loneliness strikes a man, the tend to hallucinate or think the 'nonsense'. here, a life diary of a persona who thinks his pencil as his best buddy throughout his adversity.creepy but breaks the silence :D

aku menulis

tanpa titik noktah

tanpa tanda seru

atas lembaran murni

penuh contengan hati

gementar gemuruh

khuatir dan khusyuk

bila dipetir derita

dia jugalah

sekeping tilam

dia jugalah

seutas tasbih

seorang teman

sabar dan setia

dia tahu

saat saat ku menangis

saat saat ku gembira

bagai bebayang yang akur

akan adat cahaya

begitu la si dia

ku memegangnya

melorek cerita sedih

dengan rakus

hilangkan luka hati

lupakan tusukan duri

jika dia tumpul

tak biasa merungut

jika dia patah

tak biasa menangis

setia selalu

bagai ombak di samudra

beralun senantiasa

aku masih menulis

masih tanpa noktah

masih tanpa seru

dengan contengan hati

tapi kawanku itu

tabah mendengar

inti bagai arang

kukuh bagai kayu

tajam bagai damak

buat pensel milikku...

arts & ramadhan

first day of ramadhan kicks off by few simple art using paing and picnik in flickr! wishing to all muslims in the world to have a blessed ramadhan..

- more of paint art. original piece. done with simple circle and multiplied filled with rose shades.-

-alter of colors in different vibrant tone-

-edit of previous  picture using picnik-

-invert and blurr using picnik-

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☼☼ART IS FUN AND EXPRESSIVE☼☼

fruity goodness

fill your time with art!!

8 june 09 - this is just another drawing i did based on my moms cross stitch art named 'GOOD FOR YOU'. and i compiled the progress of the drawing process into lil clip with my favorite song sung by Sasi The Don. sorry for the bad quality.

done with crayons and sketched using pncil.

:::::::::: ART IS EXPRESSIVE ::::::::::

My Truthful Religion is The Path to Righteousness

"started most probably as few guidelines and close tight rules to lead lifestyle, religion has been very dominant to the mankind. possibly imposing teaching and ideas of the early starters and practitioners, religion has been and still growing in many forms that help to nourish righteousness in human life by provoking humans to avoid committing sins. "

as proposed by many religion, the basic rules emphasised in every religion are basic virtuous things that only lead to mans' goodness. in every continent, or more accurate to say, in every land we can point, different religions grown together and differs from other part of continent/land which can be explained by the difference in culture. so, The Almighty who listens to everyones prayer in the world (nearly six billion of us) do keep each individual happy and unhappy at certain times.

adversity that comes to ones life is labeled as Almighty's tests that said to be a series of test that examine the depth of your faith and spirituality. pretty controversial and i would say those are escape lines (ex. God is testing you/It is Fate) that magically cures wound hearts.

despite the way you pray or which religion you believe, every human have their portion of spiritualism embedded in their brains. Spiritual Quotient (SQ -as some prefer to refer) is a portion of our routine thinking where it can be satisfied by any religious or nonreligious views. if that portion of their brain is satisfactorily filled, then one can say they are pious, spiritual or religious.

this idea is applicable even to atheist where their god is NO-GOD and their religious rules/guidelines (or Bible) is logical, experimental and concrete thinking. when they  (atheist) believe that there is no god, then they already convinced that they are pious (to religion called atheism).

as one can see atheism and non-atheistic religion as just mere guidelines to lifestyle, one can agree that all religion leads to one path - Path of Righteousness. or metaphorically can be said, same coin but different side of view.

Bunga Di Tepi Kubur

a litttle dedication to whomever that sacrifices their  needs, desire and efforts just to entertain others. appreciation is something that is not much practised in the society. not to blame them but their temptation around. this poem encloses the life of a corpse that unintentionally gives life to a seed to grow from the seed's point of view. the best part of the poem that i like is each line is alternated by 2 and 3 words . enjoy and indulge..

aku benih,
dikurung dalam tanah,
dihambat keras,
tak mungkin bergerak,
tubuhku kering,
tidak disiram dahagaku,
gersang jiwa...

namun aku,

dapat titisan air,

entah siapa,

ku fikir keliru,

terima kasih,

kepada penyiram jiwaku...

ku hairan,

aku rajin melihat,

air itu,

berasa hangat semacam,

baru kutahu,

punca hidup aku,

air itu,

bukan sebarangan air,

air mata,

penghuni sebelah aku...

tangisannya dalam,

ku tanya,

jawabnya hanya tangisan,

"ku mati,
dalam sengsara hati,
tidak terperi,
hidup tiada erti",
kini hidupnya,
berjiran dengan benih,
dalam tanah,
sunyi, sepi, selamanya...

ku membesar,

di tepi lahad,

dengan bekalkan,

limpah air matanya,

menatang hidupku

melihat dia,

si jiran  sedih...

dia masih,

menangis dalam kuburnya,

dia mereput,

ku tumbuh berdaun,

berputik jua,

setelah sekian lama,

banyak berbunga

walau dia sedih,
dia bangga,
besarkan aku seorang,
mengenali diri,
sebagai baka kemboja....

J A R A K antara C I N T A

when two hearts separated over a distance, the heart grow fonder and get more indulged in the love. separation can be metaphored as scorching drought in an oasis. being so away from the loved ones made me write this little fable. indulge... :D

pabila kasturi warnai awan

terbenam mentari dalam barat

menghembus nafas baldu

sebagai angin bayu

melintas bunga bungaan

menegur lebah lebah madu

melangkah dalam jiwaku

dibauri bau khusyuk mu

ku tersedar

mencari bebayang si dia

ku sedar

mimpi indah semata mata

bagai akar haus menanti hujan

bak tanah kontang melihat awan

kalbuku gersang

kerna jarak antara dua hati

jauh dua hati ini

bak daun keladi disiram

daun tak basah

ke tanah tak sampai

namun cinta kita

bagai cendana dalam atar

hilang dalam angin ribut

tak harum bunga melur

  

selamanya

semestinya

sehati sejiwa

seraga

hanya cinta  ♥

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