DAKAPAN PERTAMA : wishes for parents..

its my 21 bday today and i would like to thank my mom for giving a chance to get  me here in the world.

all appreciation to parents and almighty.

DEDICATED TO MY MOM N PA


apakah aku?
terasa sesak, hanyir dan terdesak
mata pedih direndam air
hanya gelap menemani tangisan ku
mencari jalan keluar
ingin menghidu bau segar

siapakah aku?
keliru rasanya
ditangkap dalam ruang
ngeri, melekit dan sempit
menunggu untuk keluar
bagaikan sudah sedia diberitahu

dimanakah aku?
merasai ku berada dalam sesuatu
ternampak noktah cahaya
umbunku mencarik daging
mataku melihat dunia
pertama kali
tangisan didengar telinga

siapakah dia
menangis melihat ku?
kenapakah dia
memanggilku ke arah dadanya?
bagaimana aku
terasa menyandar dalam dakapannya?
jawab dia yang satu
untuk semua tangisan musykilku
“namaku adalah ibu....”

பொங்கல் திருநாள்

one of proud Tamilans' occasion is Ponggal. meaning 'boil and spill over' literally, it is a celebration dedicated to farmers, the Sun and cow or cattle.

Ponggal signifies that the end of farming season and it is the time to harvest. basically it means, jumping out of farmers monotonous routine. most auspicious ossacions are done after Ponggal which resides in the Tamil month  Thai.

Ponggal symbolizes a bountiful harvest, rice is cooked in new pots until they boil over. symbolically marking the overjoy, prosperity, fertility and all good things in ones life starts after the Ponggal festival. little thanksgiving prayers are set towards The Sun (root source of life sprouting on earth), The God, and cows/catttle (animals used to plough soils). the direct similarities of Ponggal can be traced in occasions like Thanksgiving Day and harvest festivals.

Pongal has astronomical significance: it marks the beginning of Uttarayana, the Sun's movement northward for a six month period. In Hinduism, Uttarayana is considered auspicious, as opposed to Dakshinaayana, or the southern movement of the sun. All important events are scheduled during this period.

Ponggal denotes the starting of the auspicious Thai month which most auspicious events are carried out. the first day of Thai is called Makara Sankranthi which refers to the event of the Sun entering the zodiac sign of Makara or Capricorn.(Sun positions is on the Capricorn region inthe constellation cycle)

Ponggal is celebrated as three days event. The first day known as Suriya Ponggal. done on early morning, Suriya Ponggal is an appreciation celebration to the Sun God. the second day is Maattu Ponggal which is thanksgiving day to cows. the last one is Kanni Ponggal which are for virgins. bachelorettes will perform Ponggal prayers in wish for good husbands. all three days are celebrated by cooking the sweet Ponggal rice in a earthern pot on brick based stove (fueled by logs).

பொங்கல் என்பது,

சங்கத் தமிழனின்

தேசியத் திருவிழா,

வீசிய விதையின்,

வேரில் முளைத்த,

வியர்வைப் பூக்களின்,

இயற்கைத் திருவிழா..

awan purnama kayangan

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~mimpi~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
manis
tidur kayangan diusik
pohon membisik mantera suci
awan bertandang
menabur embun baiduri
bak sebutir gula di sisi bibir
terasa nikmat alam maya
kesepian usik sampai tergoda jiwa
manis

lena
ku biarkan mimpi yang indah
antara dunia nyata dan maya
bak tidur atas awan sutera
bertemankan purnama teman bicara
terasa nikmat alam maya
gembira jiwa dalam tidurnya
lena

manis
awan membisik tidur kayangan ku
hasrat dengki purnama cemburu
bayu menepuk bahu
membuang batu dalam mimpi indah ku
namun
hairan ku tak bangun
mengiakan gangguan alam maya
bermimpi dalam tidur nyata
lena dan manis terasa

Paint application

drawn to pixel perfection, this image drawn just using Line and Invert Color option

my first Paint drawing :an abstract flower. can make into good wall paper :D

the same as first photo :the original piece

coloring gets interesting in Paint by just using Crop and Copy Paste options. done in just 3 minutes.

abstract image of cactus in desert. intensed with lots of different tones.

another abstract piece. can make a good wall post.

all these images are only drawn using Paint application in Windows. creativity + patience makes good art piece. wait for more interesting uploads.

PART 2 : அன்பே சிவம்? சிவமே அன்பு?

for rare : அன்பே சிவம் - GOD IS LOVE
for most : சிவமே அன்பு - LOVE IS GOD
for some : யெம்மதமும் சம்மதம் - TRUE FOR ALL RELIGION

life poses lots of mysteries. but for me it hide tonnes of complexes. religion one of it. till now i cant figure out what actually shapes religion and different streams in religion and also what trigger human to come up with relic and myth stories to explain a religion.
 
one thing for sure, religion is meant to be a guide for human llife but not THE only essentials that we MUST have. existence of extra-terrestrial holistic and spiritual power relies on the imaginary side of human brain. religion is too abstract to spesify and explain on. it is the same situation of looking the different sides of a coin. and that explains why we have so many religions though it postulates the same humanity virtues.
 
statues, idols, sculptures, relics, religous stories, religous characters and role models used all over the globe to pass on the idea of a religion. for a religion to survive over a period of time, it need firm foundations (understanding) on its basic rituals and beliefs. this is attained through forementioned measures. and that is the main reason why some religion is being criticised on its orginality and existence of religous stories and idols.
 
though criticism and manipulation bombard any religion, number of people who believe in it outwit everything. and that is the reason why religion is a way of life in the materialistic world. ironic isnt?
 
for short, every religion pass on their teachings via writings, stories, relics, rituals, belief, idols, sculptures, statues, architecture and so on.  interesting questions pop out.. why man worked so hard in sustaining religion? why so many ways are worked out and practised in every day life just to let the idea of religion kept well among its practitioners? what makes a religion so great and believable?

millenium first decade

As the time flows like a river, priced like a heera and noted like an exclamation mark, the value of time often recklessly underestimated. Until, someone stood up and say : "Hey dude, look! It’s the end of the year!!"

A matter of fact that well realised is, sooner, we are going to step into our last year of the first decade of the millennium.
MILLENIUM'S FIRST DECADE....
phewww!
That is a weird way of saying : “hello! Its 2010!”.

staggering and heart throbbing tsunami, swine flu, bombing, H1N1, hurricane, terrorism and much more bombarded the mankind so far as every year pass by. But still, we are undivided living the materialistic world for harmony (to some extent). Many catastrophic events took place throughout the years and made us to grow a lil’ bit better human being. I believe.

Yesterday was history (for us to learn), tomorrow is mystery (to be looked/shaped for). Today is a gift, and that’s present.

So wishing all of you a sweet and happy new year and be ready for what the year have for all of us! Mysteries await and, live the day like its golden!

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

the 36th day

tiga puluh enam hari
days with no handphone contact nor messages. pretty weird to roam around without bulky n73 around. it was very bothering to look at it first time after some period. shocking messsages duh!

neway need to tell my friends that sorry for not replying messages cz i just got it!
cheerio :)

QUICK UPDATE

mode : happy
attitude : fooling roun :P
lesson learnt : everyone do not think the same way we do
work load : head of department of two different event at same time (for my upcoming sem)
academic : unattached for the moment -HOLIDAY!!!-
achievement : organised small family gathering
social network : pleasant
bad things done : -secret-
wishlist : HD portable
outing : kulim kulim kulim
future outing : penang paya terubong, butterwrth, grik, k.intan, padang besar
latest makan place : kulim highland - ikan masak tomyam :MELETUP:-
upcoming plan near future : new phone n digicam! yeay!!!

அன்பே சிவம்? சிவமே அன்பு?

for rare : அன்பே சிவம் - GOD IS LOVE
for most : சிவமே அன்பு - LOVE IS GOD
for some : யெம்மதமும் சம்மதம் - TRUE FOR ALL RELIGION

in most cases it poses not a threat or thought. but three words : "god, is, love" can fold in tonnes of question about yout religous views.

for most have us who believe in one religion, LOVE IS GOD. meaning, it is speculating (refer to the tamil meaning) that one should love his/her religion good enough untill you see god is omnipresent (god is everywhere). enormous love to god which highlights that one should love the religion, its views and hence the almighty is most pious people thought. when one loves the god enormously, he/she would find peace for eternity (harmony or moksha) and would feel the world is great place to fit in without any complains. this perpective is well known in most religion. most major religion in the world underline the importance of loving the god more than yourself. this also refer to religion piousness/piety.

but in rare cases and deep thinkers, GOD IS LOVE. what is this actually?
religion is a abstract belief that impose GOD as the vital soul/inteligence/power. for those who belief there is no god, the idea of GOD IS LOVE will do make some sense. in this, love is the god and the vital soul/intelligence/power that attach all of us. for those who trust these views, the idea of god/almighty will be seem to be nonsensical and unnecessary. when you share love to others, the joy of brotherhood and canopy of love that connects us will push us into the ocean of happinnes (metaphorical hahah!!). and that will give internal and eternal peace and harmony. usually, concrete thinkers or logical thinkers will have these thought and do make great sense. humanity and sympathy would be their only bible/gita/quran. sound ridiculos but it poses some important theories. some of it : humanity and human needs/importance is major priority and it could not be achieved just by worshipping some idol/wall/statues for world peace. cool thought right? hahaha!

but they are 'gray' statues between these two major idea. the one who say all religous view are correct. although this seems to be not firm and doubtful it also possess some important idea which is : tolerancy.

whichever religous view you posses, what matters in the end is inner-peace, harmony and happinnes. so people it doesnt matter you are one pious pope or barbaric religion-less creature, you still a part of the world which vital for global happinnes... yeay!!!!!!!

-enjoy the magical lyrics of vairamuthu-
yaar yaar sivam? nee naan sivam
vaazhvae thavam anbae sivam
aaththigam paesum adiyaarkeLLaam sivamae anbaagum
aaththigam vaesum naLLavarukkoe anbae sivamaagum
anbae sivam anbae sivam yendrum
anbae sivam anbae sivam yengum
anbae sivam anbae sivam yendrum
anbae sivam anbae sivam yengum
idhayam yenbadhu sadhaidhaan yendraaL yerithaLal thindruvidum
anbin karuvi idhayam yendraaL saavai vendruvidum
yaar yaar sivam? nee naan sivam
anbin paathai saerndhavanukku mudivae iLLaiyadaa
manadhin neeLam yedhuvoe adhuvae vaazhvin neeLamada
- movie : anbe sivam ; singer : kamal hassan, karthik raja

|| boundary of satisfaction ||

WE. identified as humans, are creative dominant creatures with power to destroy, create and embrace whatever we have around. and that simply means appreciate or abandon the gifts given to us. To talk about ‘gifts’ in this modern materialistic world, nothing seems to be the gift that is considered to be worth praising.

For some, their skin colour could be gift, for some, their two arms are gift. It is totally depend on the perspective of individuals (a fact that should be noticed / well known).

In my point of view, recognising and establishing what is satisfaction is important. Without us knowing what can satisfy us, we could make a major mistake in most cases (ex. Waste of money).

Sex, wealth, physical, luxury and love can be some stuff that hard to be identified its limit of satisfaction. Due to this, we may fail to limit our time, energy, money and effort within needed amount just to please ourselves. WASTE is major consequence of not limiting our level of satisfaction. And to some extent – a horrifying effect -, some people may experience disturbed mental problem (thinking of their problems again and again- tarnishing the thinking).

So to cut the jargons and keep it short, one should limit their dreams and needs to some level which is practical. Hoping for a prince charming to appear just to wear glass shoes on your feet and say “Will you marry me?”, is total waste in this realistic and practical world.

Everyone must realise their state, accept the disadvantages in them, embrace the advantages/gifts given and start to dream for achievable goals. Start to limit your goals by measurable means. Dream high. Put in unlimited effort for that measurable goal then wait for the result. Lastly, sit back and enjoy the pleasure that it gives. :)